Psychoanalysis of the Self
Car Trouble
So I was speeding down the highway at a a respectable 70 mph, when I pass a cop car that's sitting on the side of the highway. Luckily, I am in the far left, and he is on the far right, and there are 2 lanes between us. I decide to get off the highway in case he decides to come after me. I switch lanes in front of a truck and make my exit. I have no idea if he did get onto the highway from the shoulder, but it was a lucky thing I did, because a short time after I got off, I ran out of gas (my gas meter thing is inaccurate). Even when I run out of gas, I can start the car again and drive a little bit before the engine stops again. I actually made it to a gas station with the engine dying a total of 3 times on the way. I filled up a little bit because it was a bit more expensive than near my house, and then proceeded to drive to the cheaper one. After I got there, and filled my gas tank again, I started to exit the gas station, and waited for the cars to let up so I could get onto the street. After the third time that the light had changed to red, I finally forced my way into the traffic, cursing under my breath every car that saw me trying to get out but wouldn't let me through. As I drove home though, I realized that had I not exited the highway, I probably would have been still stuck on the highway with an empty gas tank, in an even fouler mood. This realization that things could be worse, made me feel better, and I should always remember that when my sight is focused on the immediate, things may seem bad, but in the broader scheme of things, it really could be worse.
Note to self: Always remember the bigger picture.
Politics, Religion, and Sex
Cast of Characters:
The Doc: male Kenyan co-worker w/ a PhD from Japan
The Christian: male Chinese Christian co-worker; goes to church every Sunday, goes to seminary, and leads a cell group
The Talker: male American-born Chinese co-worker who likes to talk...alot
The Shorty: female Latin American co-worker from a Catholic family (who happens to be short) who goes to church once a year
So we're having lunch in the company kitchen, when the Talker comes in and brings up the topic of gay marriages (in typical Talker fashion, just to be able to tell his own views). Now, perhaps I take this more personally than most because my best friend is gay, but I was really surprised and offended by some of their view points. And yes, I know everyone is entitled to their own opinion, but still, I can't understand it. Basically this is what came out. The Christian of course is against anything gay. This is to be expected, as it is against his religious beliefs. The thing that surprised me though, was that he would be for a Constitutional Amendment forbidding gay marriages. Sure, you can have your own beliefs, but forcing your beliefs on others is something I can't seem to understand. Didn't Christians have this problem in ancient Rome? How about some empathy? The Shorty also has a Christian background, but believes in "live, and let live." The Talker said he agreed with the Shorty, but further into the conversation, he said he would prefer that his kids didn't turn out to be gay. This bothered me, but preferences are preferences, and he said he would love his kids either way all the same. The real shock came when the Doc, a seemingly intelligent man, said, "as long as they don't move in next to me." What?!? If someone said that about any particular race, there'd definitely be trouble. I would have ripped him a new a-hole, except that this is an office, and I don't want to cause my uncle any trouble, but now I can't see the Doc as anything more than a bigot. Anyway, I'm going to end this here because I think I may have started to rant and ramble more than providing anything productive for self analysis.
Note to self: The rule about never talking about politics, religion, and sex, is a very good rule.
Coitus interruptus...
I know I said I'd talk about sex, but two things happened yesterday that I wanted to get down while it was still fresh in my mind
So stay tuned for:
1)
Politics, Religion, and Sex
2)
Car Trouble
Background:
I am a 26-year old American-born Taiwanese male. I have an older sister (by 2 years) and a younger sister (also, by 2 years). Yes, I am the middle child, and also the only son. Thus begins the template of my neurotic existance. Currently I am working at a network video software company owned by a relative on my father's side, as I have been for the past 5 years since before graduating from college. I have been in 3 "real" relationships, all of which lasted at least 2 years, and am currently engaged to be wed this June in this 3rd relationship. I consider myself a neo-traditionalist in that while certain aspects of me are considered "unconventional" I still believe in the "traditional" values. Or at least some of them. Long hair and tattoos do not make me a miscreant. My fiancee and I live with my parents and my younger sister in a two story house. My parents live on the second floor, while my finacee, my sister, and I live on the first. My older sister lives in a house in the neighborhood with her husband, their two children, and members of her husband's family (mother, 2 brothers, 1 sister).
I think that's enough of a background for now. I will add more when relevant to an analysis. I will probably work backwards, with the most pressing issues first, then issues from my past and various things that set me off as they pop up.
Coming Up: Sex: The issue that supersedes all other issues...
Introduction:
I created this blog because I am feeling particularly shitty today. I've looked up some psychiatrists in the neighborhood on my health insurance company's website, but realized that I don't have the money for any effective treatment. So, armed with my brief studies in psychology in college and my personal intuition, I prepare to embark on dissecting my own mind. This blog will be sporatic as I do not have much time between work, and home, and every other thing that creates my neuroses, but I will try to be disciplined about it, and post something at least once a week. (Chances are I will post for about a week or two and then lose interest) I will keep everything thinly veiled by not using any proper names, but anyone who knows me who happens to stumble across this page will find it easy to recognize due to the events of my life that will be put forth here. If you know me and are reading this, please don't let me know, or I will have to kill you. Thanks. -- Me
Coming Up: Background info...
